My heart Desires Strange and Mysterious Things

Set me as a seal upon your heart,

As a seal upon your arm;
For love is as strong as death,
Jealousy as cruel as the grave;
Its flames are flames of fire,
A most vehement flame.
Many waters cannot quench love,
Nor can the floods drown it.

Do I understand my heart? No. Only one does, and it's not me. Am I ok with that? Yes. I actually prefer it. Because now I have the pleasure of discovering and learning about my own heart, a masterpiece created by the most perfect and beautiful of all beings. I have many passions, dreams, hopes, ideas, longings....mm. Give me Jesus, please. Of everything I want, they all pale in comparison to how much I want to know my Papa.

You know simple things about his love make me cry. Like this Jon Foreman song, Your Love Is Strong.

"Heavenly Father, you always amaze me

Let your kingdom come in my world and in my life
Give me the food I need to live through today
And forgive me as I forgive the people that wrong me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one

I look out the window the birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune or out of place
I walk to the meadow and stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl on her wedding day

So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

The kingdom of the heavens is now advancing
Invade my heart, invade this broken town
The kingdom of the Heavens is buried treasure
Would you sell yourself to buy the one you've found?

Two things you told me
That you are strong
And you love me
Yes, you love me

Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

Our God in Heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Above all names
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us weary sinners
Keep us far away from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons"

Just how could I not tear up being reminded of how strong the love of the Lord is? I mean really. Such a good, good, good God! And he loves me. He really loves me.

Your Love Is A Song.

I hear you breathing in,
another day begins.
The stars are falling out,
my dreams are fading now, fading out.

I've been keeping my eyes wide open,
I've been keeping my eyes wide open.

Ooh your love is a symphony
all around me,
running through me.

Ooh your love is a melody
underneath me,
running to me.

Your love is a song...

The dawn is fire bright
against the city lights.
The clouds are glowing now;
the moon is blacking out.



I've been keeping my mind wide open,
I've been keeping my mind wide open.

Ooh Your love is a symphony
all around me,
running through me.

Ooh Your love is a melody
underneath me,
running to me.

Oh, your love is a song,
your love is a song...
Oh, your love is a song,
you love is a song...

With my eyes wide open,
I've got my eyes wide open,
I've been keeping my hopes unbroken.

Ooh your love is a symphony
all around me,
running through me.

Ooh your love is a melody
underneath me,
running to me.

Oh your love is a song!
Your love is my remedy!
Your love is a song...

-Switchfoot.

It broke my heart wide, wide open again. Oh God, your love is my song.

Of sparrows and flames.

Wait, it's November? Really? Time gets away, especially when you don't own your own computer DESPITE promises of one...*cough*schoolisgettinghardPapa*cough*.

Well, I've never really been sure how to blog. It's always been so much different than my journal, that no one sees, and I recently found out that many more eyes are on this blog than I realized. It's a great feeling, and also kind of astounding that more than a few people are interested in my random thoughts and ideas. I really do just spill stuff here. A little here, a little there from my very confusing and vast mind.

Now what have I been up to...
I got a motorbike. I really, really, REALLY love it. It's amazing, and it's got so much personality. I named him Vincent. Vincent Valentine, and I'm probably gonna paint him red. I actually named him after an old favorite character of mine.
I also went to an awesome vintage shop with Kelly and found this amazing dress that actually fits me. Yes, I said it. Something that's not falling off of me, that actually stays on my small frame. It's incredible. It's blue. It's perfect.
I also found some sweet silver leather heels with gold plated toes. And it was all really cheap. I love thrift shopping so much.
I want a cloak. When my mom asked me what I wanted for my birthday and Christmas this year, I told her that. She stared, then laughed, then said I've always asked for the strangest presents. It's true.

I want a dog, a long dark cloak with a huge hood and really big pockets inside of it, an early trip to KC (which my parents really seem to like)...I guess those are the main three.

Well I really didn't have much to say. Not practical things anyway. I just knew I needed to post something.

I'm doing some self portraits tomorrow. I'll try and post some soon.

Much love.