"The tendency in today's culture is to want to be a star, but I want to be a servant."

Friends.

Oh my goodness, I am so weak. SO weak. I need to extend grace, but even more than that I need it extended to me. Jesus, help me. I really, really loathe what I see in myself.

"When everything inside me
Looks like everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take."

I need to love my brother. He is my BROTHER. If I do not love my brother, than what am I? I am so mad at him right now, for sure, but I need to love him. And I will...I'm determined to. That is my choice. I will love him no matter what, I will work at love. Because love is worth fighting for.

"There are things worth fighting for, and love is at the top of the list." -Jamie Tworkowski

"If love is a labor, I'll slave 'till the end. I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand." -Rise Against

I love words, quotes, poems, songs, lyrics, stories. So powerful. Some friends of mine have been showing me some real strong, deep, and wise ones. I really just want to be a servant. I love the stars....but I would rather be a servant.

And have hope. Hope is important. Hope is a fruit of the spirit. Where hope is, the spirit resides.

"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars. The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."

I'm a seriously messed up person. I guess you can probably see that. I lack so much grace, so much humility, so much...righteousness. To be like a man called Jesus...that is what I seek. I have such a long way to go. But one day, with his help, I hope to reach that goal.

My blogs lately feel so scrambled, messed up, random, and confusing. I apologize if you are subjected to this madness. Don't feel like you have to read anything I write. I only write because I was created to. And this is simply a means of release and expression.

Love.