"You know the one thing you're fighting to hold
Will be the one thing you've got to let go
And when you feel the wall cannot be burned
You're gonna die to try what can't be done"

Oh Jesus...what's coming? It's so strong...right there. I feel it, a big change that I will never turn back from. That's why I feel like crying. Something is dying, and something is being birthed. It's painful...but it's good. It's necessary for me to grow. And I do want to grow...I'm so young. I enjoy this youth, but I know it can't last forever. Oh Peter Pan, what a true, true story you are. I love that book.

Man. I'm leaving something behind...only to gain something I do not yet know. I suppose I'll know after I've gained it. Ok Lord. Whatever you're doing, I trust you. I'm ready, my hands are open, fill them with whatever you may.

Love.